I Am
Synopsis:
It is about issues and dilemmas that bruise the modern Indian society. Unraveling and exploring these tribulations, the film unfolds many a tale of individuals struggling to find their identity, and uphold their dignity in a world that is callous, cold and unsympathetic.
Short in four different cities across India, It is a fusion of stories where the protagonists share a common dream - a desire to regain their lives.
It AFIA is the story of a single woman who wants to experience motherhood. But she is afraid of the ticking clock, and unable to trust or even wait for a man, she decides to find that perfect donor who can give her the perfect child. Her search takes her through the underbelly of desire- desperation.
It MEGHA, is a story of two friends - a Kashmiri pandit woman and a muslim woman - separated by conflict. Against the backdrop of the ethnic cleansing in Kashmir in the late 80''s and early 90''s, this story tells of loss of home and identity.
It ABHIMANYU is the story of a child sexual abuse survivor. Most unfortunately, according to a survey conducted by the Ministry of Women and Child Development and UNICEF, 53% of children in India are abused.
It OMAR is a horrific tale of sexual discrimination; blackmail and prejudice is part of the torrid fabric. It reveals how the police use Article 377 (law under Indian Penal code which criminalizes homosexuality) to harass and blackmail gay men.
Characters move in and out of the stories, thus linking them in terms of content and structure. In all, It is about glimpses into the lives of people who often do not know what''s right and very often, do not do the right thing. It is also about human vulnerability and brokenness wherein lies an inescapable beauty.
It is born of true life incidents.
It is born of true life incidents.
Rahul Bose sitting across a transparent table, trying to make himself as small as possible while a smooth-talking fixer makes a polite proposition that involves trading human decency for a promotion, has stayed with me longer than any of the grandiose speeches about modern India that litter the middle stretch of Onir's anthology project. It’s an acting choice built entirely around a micro-expression of absolute disgust that he quickly covers with a professional, media-trained smirk. You can see the gears turning in his head as he calculates the exact cost of his own mortgage against his suddenly fragile morals. It feels less like a performance captured on a digital rig and more like an overheard conversation in a corner booth at a Delhi coffee shop where nobody is telling the truth. We are so used to seeing this kind of moral compromise played out with operatic thunder, but here it happens under the buzzing hum of fluorescent office lights and the clatter of a teaspoon hitting ceramic.
Onir gathered money for this thing through Facebook campaigns and small individual donations back when crowdfunded cinema in India was basically an impossible dream, and you can feel that scrappy, improvisational energy rattling around in the frames. The camera moves with a nervous twitch, handheld and reactive, sometimes catching actors off-guard in ways that suggest the budget ran out before they could nail the second safety take. There's a particular stretch in the segment dealing with Kashmir where the framing gets so claustrophobic you feel like you are wedged into the back seat of a Maruti 800 with half a dozen stressed strangers, the exhaust fumes practically leaking through the speakers. It is not polished work by any stretch, and if I'm honest, the grading shifts abruptly from scene to scene as if three different colorists worked on it over separate weekends without talking to each other. The screenplay, cobbled together from real newspaper clippings and survivor accounts, refuses to treat its subjects as walking placards for social justice. Instead, it lets people be messy, contradictory, and occasionally quite annoying.
Juhi Chawla hasn't been this raw since her early days, playing a middle-aged woman whose comfortable life in an upscale Mumbai apartment starts unraveling the moment she confronts a childhood trauma she has spent thirty years pushing down into her stomach. She plays terror not with screaming matches or tearful monologues, but with the specific physical rigidity of someone trying not to let their hands shake while pouring a cup of tea for a guest. When she breaks down, it’s ugly and ragged, her voice cracking in a way that suggests she might throw up right there on the Persian rug. Standing across from her, Manisha Koirala brings a tired, weathered grace to her brief screen time that makes you wonder why casting directors in mainstream Hindi cinema spent a decade ignoring her talent once the star-machine moved on to younger faces. They don't share a frame, but their respective stories bleed into each other through a shared atmosphere of domestic dread that feels entirely earned.
Then there is Anurag Basu showing up in front of the camera as a paranoid film director, and look, it's a small thing, but his dubbing is so out of sync in two crucial shots that I kept getting pulled right out of the narrative. It’s just distracting enough to ruin what is otherwise a genuinely funny and painful look at the casual horrors of Section 377 before the Supreme Court finally struck it down. The background score relies a bit too heavily on a solitary piano motif that pops up every time someone looks out a rainy window, which feels like it wandered in from a completely different movie, maybe something like Page 3 or an early Madhur Bhandarkar flick that forgot how to be subtle. Yet the sound design in the crowded train station sequences makes up for the musical clichés, piling up ambient chatter, vendor shouts, and train whistles into a dense wall of noise that accurately captures the sheer exhaustion of existing in a modern Indian metropolis.
The four segments tackle child abuse, gay rights, Kashmir, and aging through the lens of urban isolation, which sounds on paper like the syllabus for an NGO workshop rather than a Friday night trip to the local multiplex. But Onir manages to avoid the trap of turning his characters into saints or monsters, giving them enough rough edges to make their internal conflicts bite. When Arjun Mathur has to play a young gay man navigating the cruising spots of Mumbai, he doesn't lean into the flamboyant clichés that usually populate commercial Hindi movies; he plays him as a slightly bored twenty-something just trying to score a decent cup of coffee and a sympathetic ear before heading back to a judgmental family. There’s a scene where he sits in a parked car with Sanjay Suri where the dialogue is so halting and awkward it almost hurts to watch, perfectly mimicking the excruciating dance of two men testing each other's boundaries in a society that treats their existence as a criminal conspiracy.
Bollywood has spent decades smoothing over the rough edges of urban anxiety with glossy songs and foreign locations, so watching a project like this fumble around in the dark corners of the same cities feels strangely refreshing even when the filmmaking falls apart at the seams. The segments don't tie up their respective conflicts with neat bows, refusing to hand the audience a comforting moral takeaway or a reassuring smile as the credits begin to crawl up the screen. Instead, characters are left standing in dim hallways or walking away down dusty streets with their problems entirely unresolved, exactly the way real life tends to operate once the cameras stop rolling.